The struggle is real
I am finding it Really difficult at the minute… Really don’t know what’s up with me lately… patients is slowly running out 🤔🙈 I just want to be there and be there now!! why is everything a long waiting game… I’m not used to waiting for somthing i need or want regarding work life. I’ve always just gone out and got what I wanted but at this point in time it is a waiting game and it’s so frustrating!..
Money issues! (we all have them)
So at presant its difficult for me because “yes money doesn’t make you happy” (to a certain extent) but it Really does help. I’m lacking money! Simple as that. I do not have any savings and nothing really to show for the last 12 years of hard work… I’ve just found somthing that I really want to do from a simple app game on my phone and through this app, I’ve realised it’s somthing i really enjoy and that I’m actually good at…
Home Design (Play Store)
This app has inspired me to do so much more than just getting votes on my deisgns, it’s motivated me to look into becoming an interior designer. Everyone on the app gets to vote for the design they think is the best and on average my results are between 4 – 5 stars…5* being the highest. So for me this is a massive achivenmemt, it’s somthing I’m quite proud of! The app is obviously on a smaller level of interior design and I found through my research that there is alot more to interior design then just picking furniture ECT… 2 main aspects of it is, ART and SCIENCE… 2 passions that i love the most!! All round the whole definition of interior design is something that is me all over! 😍
I can only imagine what Im capable of doing with the right support, education, experience and training – Stacey Jones
One of my designs (More to come below)
What’s my problem then? you may ask…
This is where my problems start!
- I have a new found challange and love for something I can’t afford to study!
- The course isn’t funded by student finance.
- I do not have the funds to survive let alone pay for the course I need to get into the industry.
- I want to start my future today but feel like I’m faced with 1000 brick walls.
- I’m currently working with a charity called “new leaf” who can in some circumstances help fund courses and licences ECT. (but unfortunately so far I don’t beleive the funding is going to be even close to covering the course.
- I also can not be working during working with this charity otherwise the suport stops.
Feeling my frustration yet?
I feel like at the moment, this is all i can do, is dream…
Even though dreams can be reality! I know my plans arnt unrealistic and it is possible! but also I’m a realist and I do feel like my career in interior design is just a dream and it feels like that’s als i can do… untill I know my options… and hope that it will come at the right time…
I don’t want to waste any more time!
For so many years I’ve gone for jobs just for the money and because I can! I worked just to servive and I’m sure their are so many people out there that do the same! but i cant do it anymore life is to live! TO do something you enjoy and love! I once seen a video of a guy showing you a working time line… from birth to death and this is where it truely hit me… we spend majority of our life working, around 40+ years out of 80+ years of our life… so why shouldn’t I want to enjoy what im doing in this time! I’ve already worked 12 years of my life so far out of 26! thats nearly half my life so far! And ill repeat again…
I have nothing to show for this! no car… no house… no savings…apart from experience and occasionally a few holidays
Some people reading this may assume I’m just really bad with money or not good at saving which you would be right on some level… but it’s not been easy… I’ve had to pay for stuff that alot of young people my age wouldn’t have to but assentiual to just servive. I understands that yes I’m not the only one and there is people much worse off than me and I am genrally greatfull for my life and the people init…
I refuse at this point to just go to work just to pay the bills! I want to be someone who’s apprecated for their work! I want to put my heart and soul into a career and into work that someone will apprecate.
Imagine that job being to design someones house with them! A forever home unique to that person and helping that happen!
The next job I go into I want it to be my life career I want to invest my time into somthing I love instead of wasting time. I want to be able to retire in this next job but still have the passion to continue it even after retiring!!! I want to be proud of what ive done in my working life instead of woundering “what if”…
Why do I want to do this so badly?
I’ll tell you why…
I have one of the most creative minds with ideas comimg out of my ears. So doing a 9-5 standard normal job in an office isn’t my thing… ( no offence to any one who has everyone is different after all) these kinds of jobs do not motivate me. For so many reasons.
I do not like working in the same space day in and day out it gets extremely boring for me and my brain starts to wonder. I get distracted easily if my mind isn’t occupied on something I love.
As much as I do love people I prefer to meet new people often, with diffrent story’s. I want to be able to work in a team that have the same goal in mind – ie working on projects… I want to constantly work with different and new people and alone with my own ideas.
I want to be able to deal with people that actually need me, who have requested my time and actually want my expertise and my personality in there home, dealing with people that will actually appreciate what I do and be rewarded for it fairly, and help people make their dreams come true… as i live mine through interior design.
I thrive off new and exciting challenges, which I know from interior design I can get this… but frequently!